The latest twist in my life, at which the Gods are laughing at, is my failing all my classes.

Over the summer, I got the opportunity to go on this Study Abroad program. It opened my eyes to how much I loved learning, and I decided that when I got back to school, I would try extra hard, because it is worth it.

Fast forward to the fifth week of school, where I am at least 10x more alert in the classroom, making a point to do my homework (well, I forgot once in math), really trying to soak up the material, and I have a straight c average.

I have three AP classes and two on level classes. My grades in each type of class is exactly the same. I actually have a failing average in my on level class.

I am just tired of everything always going wrong. In the most important year of my academic career, I am going to fail out.

I am going to kill myself (well, perhaps not literally. but I certainly don't think I have much to live for), because I clearly can't contribute anything in society.

I have never done phenomenally well in school, some b's and a's, but now, I am failing.

Like I fail in school, I also fail in life with my suckass personality and inability to excel elsewhere.

I am just a waste of space. I wonder if truly giving up might actually get more in a better place than trying.

Oh, and my mom just lost her job, and my hair is falling out.

It's nothing to be ashamed of if you're trying your best.  Some people have it easy in school, some people try their hardest and still can't do as well as those who barely do anything.  It's not fair, but that's how it goes.

At least you're in AP classes; you can't be doing so badly if you got into those!

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I hope I live to tell the tale.

Lucky you being 5 weeks into school.
I wish i was that far in. 3rd day tommorow.
Sucks ASS.

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:D = LW when i talk to myhairitsnice